How many times have you heard someone say that they struggle with prayer? Or with forgiveness? Judging others? Personally, these and many other "fleshly habits" are far too often on my "to confess" list.
I've been a Christian now for 6 years (on November 15th - thank You God!), and I am still struggling with basic things like trying to earn my salvation and when I fail, feeling guilty... prayer... self-righteous feelings when I've been wronged... forgiveness... greed... discontent... laziness... etc.
It has occurred to me on more than one occasion, that if I had dedicated ONE YEAR to learning how to master each of those temptations, that 6 OUT OF 7 of them would be off the list! Well, or at least, not nearly so high up on it.
I stumble often in my growth because my attention is everywhere. I am a mom, and I am used to a crazy and hectic life where multi-tasking is as much a neccesity as breathing. But unlike motherhood, my spiritual life is not dependent on keeping several different balls juggling in the air.
Jesus said that His yoke is easy and His burden is light. Yes! That's because my salvation is a gift from Him. I can trust Him to keep me safely in His hands (reserved for the heavenly kingdom) while I work on calmly following His lead... changing into His image.. one step at a time.
I'm not saying that there won't be lessons that come two or more at a time. Life is complex! But think about school, or job training. SOME SKILLS MUST BE LEARNED BEFORE OTHERS. I am not going to be able to master the deeper truths of the faith if I am still struggling with the basics.
I am finally going to try to apply this to myself and my kids... learning one skill at a time, under the strength and guidance of the Holy Spirit. I wonder what we will work on this year? I think maybe PRAYER. For one year (maybe more, maybe less), I'd like to concentrate most of our training on how, when, why, what, and where to pray, and practice this discipline that is so central to our faith! I want them to know God intimately, and to lean on Him, trust Him and hear His voice. And me too.
Its kind of freeing too, to think that I can BE STILL and know that HE is God. Maybe He'll have a different plan, or change my direction... great! Now I'll be quiet enough to be able to hear Him...
:) Good night ladies!